Little Bird Poetry

  Dad, I guess I'll never really understand it the years of abuse I have endured from you hair pulling  nauseating  nail splitting  and screams fueled by your own narcissistic desires to destroy everyone else  so that you might build yourself up on our ruins why is it you'd call me the whore  when one of your blood was born by another woman why is it  you'd burn my belongings while liquor burned your throat why is it  you'd tear apart my heart when you never had one, to begin with you are what authors use to craft a monster cruelty without a cause seemed to please you more than your wife nothing was ever enough for you all those nights spent stumbling upstairs  outside sweating in the cold dirty cigarettes laying at your feet burying you in your own lusts you've ruined my ability to love as you never really loved me you were supposed to be the man to never break my heart as your daughter  I am ashamed to claim your blood not a man in thi...

 Air winds through loose hair As road runs beneath Wind rushes into my nose  Breathing gets a little easier Rumbles of thunder Shake the ground beneath Men move like lightning Without lifting their feet Freedom is coursing Through my lungs  And my blood As men who ride steel horses Remind me what its like to feel alive

Pray my lovely girl pray for better tomorrows ignore the hounds beneath your feet and try to dance amongst the leaves every day is a gift although you don't want to receive it what is this you hide scars on pale flesh that glimmer in pale moonlight why do your tears shimmer as they fall hitting your lap as rain strikes the lake all wet all the time yet never seeming to fill or drain more with each one dropping what is this my darling girl this emptiness I have found a once-mighty oak now cut clean through sap pooling at its roots coming to accept the coming fall

Wooden floors creak under bare feet Afternoon light comes through high windows Joy should be filling the empty holes But warm tea instead trickles in Damp hair wrapped in cotton Baggy clothes and books over skin Where is the passion I sought Hidden beneath my shell I find her there Laying dormant Sleeping for however long it may take Little black dogs With snoring breaths Lay across my blanketed lap No one ever told me That purgatory Would be so comfortable But numbing all at once

Ticking hands move with time putting space between until the grow closer once more the face hiding a mark known to the touch I remember waiting for the minutes to pass driving many hours down dark roads knowing well the path I'm choosing hello sweetheart a familiar phrase still ringing in my ears feeding into the fire you refuse to put out a flame I had hoped we'd share instead, you just burned out leaving me to be consumed as if it was all for nothing take all the time you need hun as if it would have ever fixed this as if you ever tried all I was to you a toy a ragged rawhide sinking in teeth with a smile not caring for the damage you've done it's not worth it none of it is I know you your dirty secret side they say a dog bites not the hand who feeds him but those dirty rotten wolves rip your heart out instead goodbye

Notes dance through the air Catching lights I throw on a track You lift me up And we dance Slowly Barefoot On worn wooden floors Your feet have no rhythm Your hips an ungraceful sway Arms strong as they hold me Close to your heart Your voice rolls sweet Down my flushed cheeks As lyrics roll out Wrapping around us And closing the gap What a way To avoid sleep Hours tik by As I memories are made

Better with age Each and every day Things grow And new beginnings bloom Opening eyes to new early mornings Between soft sheets A smile crossing lips of one Once a stranger Finding his way in To a place you'd forgotten could be reached Sitting there On your kitchen counter In your old teeshirt Watching you glance up at me from the stove Sparks flying Like the dinner You accidentally set on fire Laughter fills the halls Of a now shared home Yellow walls and wooden floors Now a stage on which we play Whispers pass between soft lips Telling secrets of our pasts Longing glances shared Over waves of music Falling upon open ears And thrown wide hearts Ready to let the other in