Prolix of the Mind

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 I'm so tired of fighting

And of fighting being tired

I have fought

And been fought


I'm so tired of the arguments

Tired of wasting my time

On people who don't have care to give

And giving care to those who only take


Most days I simply watch the hands tick

Ticking down on the time I have left

The stress has built

Since the hands have stopped

And I own a silent watch

Watching makes it worse


I play the same songs

Looking for the emotions they once held

Listening to the feelings of having someone to hold me

Tell me they'll never go

But the words are just as empty as the air

Even though they continue to echo


What to do what to do

As I stare at my screen while the rest of my world sleeps

The darkness holds me in place

Just as hands once have

More times unwilling than wanted


The words float through my mind across the keys

To people who read simply to see the words

Never knowing quite what I mean

Anyone's guess just as good as the next


But never quite right

As no one stays long enough to have the full context

Leaving a wall that they never make the effort to get over

I think some just like to stare


What are you doing? Reading this?

As if my words have any deeper meaning to you other than a short distraction from your own life?

If you were still here you could simply hear me speak instead.





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