Notebook Draft

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Another night, another night,
Stolen from the master's table,
Bitter cold strikes,
But instead of consuming my flesh,
Hardens my expression,
Why are you doing this again,
He hurts me,
Same old shit,
Again. Again. Again.
Tearing fabric,
Cries ripping out louder,
What am I to do,
Besides,
Let it go......
I beg you.

I'm in the cold again,
Feet fleeting icy pavement,
Running from a human boogie man,
Desperate to snag my bony ankles,
And drag me back,
To do it again.

Shadowed figure,
Slipping between metal bars,
I follow suit
Into kinder hands,
That barely know me,
Yet shows me blind mercy,
Letting me sit in pregnant silence,
As he drives,
With glistening drops of amber,
Peering back at me,
Sparks of streetlights,
Bouncing off them,
Piano key teeth,
Wild misshapen curls,
Someone I feel perfectly at home with.

Dimly lit parking lot,
Nowhere to be,
He leans over,
Says to me,
He would drive,
All night,
To find answers,
In the pouring rain,
And the remnants of cigarette smoke,
Laughing now,
His lighter clicks,
Imperfect,
Little pile of broken mirror shards,
Reflecting back what I might call a smile.

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