Carnival Lights

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There you were
7pm sharp
Looking like you’d won the lottery
Because you got to touch my hand
Eyes filled with such delight
And a smile that made
My heart
Stop...

You made my momma grin
Impressed my dad
You seem to be in his favor
He said 10:30
You smiled and said
“It’ll be 10:15 sharp sir”
I think this’ll go well
The drive was short
But the words were long...

The place was filled with sounds
Lights
People
However the only one that mattered
To me
Was you
Laughtered flow from you
As I my happiness bubbled
So excited for the night ahead
You said I was beautiful
When I was like that
And you wish I’d do it more

We rolled in and caught rides
But also got caught in the rain
The both of us so amused as we rode
Trying not to get sick
Rain pouring on to us
But not being able to
Dampen the mood

When we got to the top
You kissed me
And pulled me from my lows
There amongst flashing neon
I felt joy
You watched me
Like I was the only one there
You cupped my face
And the look you gave me
Was more electric
Than all the bulbs
In the park
“You make me really happy”

You have no idea
What that means
As I sat shot gun
In your truck
Going home that night
I couldn’t help but let my lips
Curve to the sky

Even now I’ve gotta fight it
Thinking about
Those carnival lights


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