Little Bird Poetry

Heartbreak. What is it. What force is enough to fully split something so strong. Something that sustains us. Yet is so delicate. READ 1:30am. When it's 1:59am. "Hey, it's me again, please call me back." "Hey I left you a voicemail yesterday, just calling to check in." Posting those photos to your snap chat story. Hoping they'll see it. Knowing they hurt you. It stinging more when they don't. Knowing they could care less. It's looking at old archived posts. Knowing that the public won't ever see them again. Digging through your folders. Flipping through photos. Seeing that smile. That you'll never give them again. Your heart stopping hearing that voice in a video you forgot. Seeing them on your friends insta. Too afraid to like the photo. Too afraid to keep following. What is heart ache in the modern world. Something so seemingly permanent. Putting our lives on display for the world to see. Yet unable to fully rid your...

I reach for it in the dark Running hands running across painted wood Until I feel the sleek bracelet Worn leather Stained from river water And spilled liquor Fingers gently running hands across my lovers name Remembering the day he gave it to me A single tear falling Knowing what I've done His breath like fire And heart full of anger All I have left Is this band I still wear it to work And when I'm alone Remembering a better time One that I can't ever go back to Knowing now that I have lost my chance

That doesn’t quite look right You without me Don’t get whiny Say that I’m wrong We were happy once Once upon a time Until the fire consumed you And you let it burn I hope your happy With the choice you made Knowing this all was a double edged sword Both hurting the other In a needed separation You sit forming people from your head With faces you’ve never seen As I watch Hoping I might be one I wish I could take it all back But it’s hard to go through a door That’s no longer there

I hope you're proud of yourself Leaning against some wall or lamp post Lit cigarette hanging from your mouth I can see the faintly glowing ashes fluttering onto asphalt Cold December air seeping into you Clothes damp from tears or a recent shower I won't ever know Possibly you find a bitter satisfaction with it all Peeling back my skin to reveal bitter insides I wonder if you know You left me a mess You think it's my fault I am not so sure anymore

I’m still in love with you. After it all. After everything. And everyone. And it’s not because it’s 12am and I have yet to sleep in 2 days. It’s because inconveniently, I’m in love with you. And it’s not because I’m sad or lonely. Or that I wish I wasn’t born. It’s because you are who you are. I love you at 3am when I lie awake staring at twinkling fairy lights. The ones that reflected off your eyes when you laughed. Running my hands along the sheets that smell faintly of you. I love you when I wake up at 8am. Digging into my phone. Begging for there to be something. Anything. I love you at 4pm. Siting in my car. Sheeran streaming through the speakers. To a song we knew all the words to. Now a one sided duet. I can’t bring myself to sing. I love you at 6pm. Sitting on my couch. Wanting to give anything for you to be there. I will continue to love you. Everyday. Tomorrow and the next. And the days that go on after. I’m in love with you. And I’m sorry.

You claw at me with cold metal hands Wrapping around my ankles My wrists And digging so deep I feel my bones crack I fight with everythig I have Only to have parts of me ripped off And torn I’m fighting my way out Day by day And you’re clinging closer than ever Desperate Hungry Opening your rusty jaws Filled with rows of broken glass teeth So lovely glittering as you speak But make me scream as they dig into warm flesh I don’t know anymore Which way is up Which is down All I know is I’m still crawling Clawing my way through clay and mud Spitting blood into the cursed ground Hoping that one day I’ll see the light again

hot tears stream down my face leaving blazing trails streaking across my freckled nose like a shooting stars fiery tail overwhelmed with feeling yet completely subdued i only want you to know how grateful i am for you how is it you do what you do with patience in your heart and kindness in your eyes ive never had such love as this been only fed rotting lies you love me at my best take care of me at my worst thank you for doing something i cannot do myself